Rain...

"Be still, sad heart! and cease repining;Behind the clouds is the sun still shining;Thy fate is the common fate of all,Into each life some rain must fall,Some days must be dark and dreary."
          from The Rainy Day by Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

Today I am sad.  I know that everything is unsettled.  That I am hidden behind attempts to cease the pain, the sorrow, the ultimate feeling of loneliness that has always been here.  So I am sad.
Over lunch I realized that it wasn't that I was lonely, it was that I had someone here and was still lonely.  I've hurt and been hurt.  I've cried.  I'm sure I've brought others to tears.  But the one thing that I keep realizing is that the emptiness is a part of everything I've known and as Longfellow stated in The Rainy Day, every life is going to get it's rain.  I just am ready for that rainy, dreary feeling to go away.  To clear like the sunlight after the storm.  

So move over clouds!  Oh, God, Please give some levity and strength.  Help me to realize my value - to know that the loneliness will fade and the sun will peak through in the darkest parts of my soul.
Tonight I'm sad.  But I long to smile.  To know that there is more.  That there is hope!

“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. ” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. ¹⁰ That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

     2 Corinthians 12:9-10