Tell Me...

Hallmark Cards - "Tell Me" Commercial Holidays 2012

Christmas....

2012....

Here we go again.


This is always the toughest part of the year for me.  It is the time when most people who struggle with loss, depression, hurt, anger, fear, and doubt find that on top of all these things there is the added dynamic of Family.

Family is a funny thing.  I don't know that I've ever truly understood the complexities and heightened dynamics that come together to form that unit of people that are bound by blood and history.

I've done this time of year married, single, as a father, in the darkest heart of depression.  I can't say that I remember many that stand out as truly wonderful.  I do remember all the times when I broke out in a cold sweat at the realization that the 25th was approaching and the entire holiday was wound into the fear of how I would react to my family, my kids, my spouse.

I've retreated many times.  I've found myself alone - even in a room full of people.  I've cried more during Christmas than just about any other time of the year.

SO.........

I've been doing serious soul searching and realized that I need to find a way that I can ENJOY this season.  I've opened up to some new ideas; new thoughts on how I'm going to handle Christmas; new possibilities in my personal life...

and then I see this Hallmark commercial tonight.  "Tell Me".

Tell Me if you love me.
Tell Me if you remember a time we shared.
Tell Me if I matter to you.
Tell Me if I've ever made an imprint upon your life.

But most of all, just Tell Me.

It is the one thing that I hope to do this season.  Tell those of you who I love and are important to me how much you mean to my life.

The commercial is just a stepping stone.

So if I have been anything positive to you...

"Just Tell Me."