"Crossroads..."

'Crossroads, seem to come and go, yeah. 
The gypsy flies from coast to coast 

Knowing many, loving none, 
Bearing sorrow havin' fun, 
But back home he'll always run...'

     ~ the Allman Brothers Band

We all go through those moments that define.  Moments when we find ourselves at the heart of a decision.  When our next step will help shape our immediate future, and maybe even down the road.  I have been walking towards this 'Crossroad' for the last year.  I've walked through one of the lowest times in my life, found sanity, found more heartache, found purpose and then started to walk.

I wrote my first blog on June 11th, 2012.  Told everyone who was willing to read it that I was going to change the way I did things.  The way that I had always accepted and thought wasn't good enough anymore.  It was time to find my own TRUTH.  Even if it was against everything that I had ever known.

So now, over 5 months later, I find that I've finally reached the place where the path meets an intersection and I get to move freely into either path.

I have found a fresh opinion of myself.  I know my value and worth and also that I am a creature that continues to grow and evolve with each new experience and time here.

I am alive.  I lived for many years as a dead man, without music, writing, and many of the things that make me whole.  But now I FEEL.  I have realized that there is HOPE and that there is a SWEET taste in my spirit of this new growth inside.

And I have met someone who makes me wonder, "Can there be even more?".

I spent Friday night on Siler Bald in North Carolina.  It was a planned trip with my hiking group, but it was more a time to let go of some of the hurts I had been holding onto and walk down that mountain .  I came down after a 15 degree night (oh, my, God was it cold!), tears shed for a lost relationship and the pain that it had caused, and a feeling that I will be able to move on and find peace without sacrificing ME!

So at this crossroad, I am taking the path that speaks to my spirit.  Just like the last year, I am going to listen, breathe and find my footing as the trail is laid out in front of me.