So what do I do now?
Tonight I prayed. Honestly asked for something more than this existence.
I guess if You are real, then all the "how to manuals" on how to pray have nothing on one persons opening up the depths of their pain and asking for help.
If You're real, maybe you'll understand if I can't ask for you to do some remarkable work in the nation, or to heal the thousands. All I can ask is for what my heart is struggling with.
What do I do next? Where do I go? What is my next step?
All I have is my experience. All I can look at is the fear that I grapple with when I'm weakest. So tonight I didn't go into the massive theological prayer that put me in this higher place than I know I am right now.
All I could do was cry out as the little child that just wants some relief.
So.....
what's next?
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